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A needed break. . .

Journal Entry: Wed Oct 21, 2009, 1:29 PM
  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Anything & Everything
  • Reading: Forums
  • Watching: Random Stuff
  • Playing: Not much at all
  • Eating: Junk stuff
  • Drinking: Dilute Pop.


I'm going to be honest with you now.

I've been working non stop, starting May 2008 on the Saphyre Project. And I think now I'm getting myself in a rut.

I feel so unconfident with anything I do. I try to write a story about my characters, but my writing sucks. I try to do a comic and within moments I'm completely overwhelmed at the sheer difficulty. My characters, I feel, will never be as good as anyone elses characters. Everything I do just isn't good enough for me. Theres always something out there better.

Looking back on the beginnings of my project, i had a lot more enthusiasm, and i knew that the whole thing was for nothing but fun and enjoyment. But now, I feel as though working on the project is a duty and a chore.

The reasons why? I think my low self esteem in general is to blame for my constant being hard on myself. But also I think after all these long months working on this project, I've completely over-worked myself. Its gotten to the point its stressing me out! This is meant to be fun! I've completely let the project take over me.

Thats why i've been doing fan art lately, because It just feels so much more chilled to me, because I'm drawing someone elses brilliant characters. I'm not responsible for anything, I don't have to think about anything. I just have to make sure the drawings all well and good.

I think I'm gonna take a break entirely from my project. I don't want all the concepts I've done to completely go to waste, so I will pick it back up. But I think when I do, I might rebuld everything from the ground up, get rid of all the baggage. You could say that I'm thinking of starting something new all together, and maybe that will happen. I love my characters I've created, so if I were to start from the ground up, they'd be in there but kind of with a different identity. A different look and name maybe. But then again you could argue they wouldn't be the characters they're meant to be no more.

Not many people were aware of this Saphyre Project I don't think so it might not be such a problem.


I'm not taking a break from art however, because thats not whats stressing me out. Expect lots more fan art from me in the coming months. The project work might continue in the new year.

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: South Yorkshire (England)
  • Interests: Games, Drawing, Digital Art, Writing etc.
  • Favourite movie: Final Fantasy VII: Advent Childen
  • Favourite band or musician: Placebo & loads more
  • Favourite genre of music: Dance/Techno, J-Pop, J-Rock.
  • Favourite style of art: Manga & also realistic
  • Operating System: White MacBook: Mac OSX Leopard 10.5.8 & iMac Aluminum 24": Leopard 10.5.8
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod Nano
  • Favourite game: Tekken, Final Fantasy, Tomb Raider, Sims, Devil May Cry
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2, PSP, PS3
  • Personal Quote: WHATEVER!!
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencil (sometimes) & my two Computers with: Photoshop Elements 6, Wacom Bamboo Fun and more. .

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Comments


:iconkinginsanity:
You've got some amazing artwork - I hope you don't mind if I watch you. It's a terrible shame if you do :D

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:iconbiscuit-the-great:
Oh no its a pleasure! I'm glad you enjoy my art! :)
:iconanonymoushope:
You are an amazing and beautiful person.

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You GMH.
:iconbiscuit-the-great:
Thanks for the nice comment! :)
:iconanimae-rian:
thank u sooo much for the watch!!..i do envy ur digital art skills!. much thanks :hug:
:iconbiscuit-the-great:
Aw thanks its such a compliment! :D You're brilliant too!
:iconrosakiddy:
Thanks for watching :)

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:iconbiscuit-the-great:
No problem, your work is awesome! :D
:iconpsychoninjanatalie:
Thanks for the watch! *watches back*

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:iconbiscuit-the-great:
you're welcome, thanks for the watch back haha :D
:iconpsychoninjanatalie:
Your welcome :3

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Heads up stinky! Yah don't say :noes:
:iconrowsey123:
Hey, i just thought i would let you no that i have updated my lady gaga drawing :)
:iconkissbite:
Hello

How do you do? Hope you had a good weekend.:headbang:

Thank you for the compliment, I appreciate it. I love your gallery & you have a new fan.:w00t!:

((hug)) Kiss-Bite

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:iconbiscuit-the-great:
Hiya, I'm okay thanks, just come back from an Art trip down Liverpool.

You're welcome and I'm glad you like my gallery (even tho I just draw the same chara most of the time ROFL) :)
:icondrinkdecaf:
Hiya! :dance: Your art, specifically one of your characters, was so cool I featured it here: [link]

Thanks for your neat art - I enjoyed checking it out :heart:

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:iconbiscuit-the-great:
Thanks so much! :) It means a lot to have ppl appreciate my OC, hoe did you come across him?
:icondrinkdecaf:
No problem :D For yours I searched for the term "Original Character" submitted most recently, and picked out ones I liked!!

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:iconbiscuit-the-great:
Im honored you like him!
:icondraconis-opticus:
Hey bru hows it? lol, happy birthday by the way i well nearly forgot. how old does that make you now? i have been loving the new art work sorry i aint commented just been busy with work and A.Hole bosses who havn't worked out that i know what i'm doing yet. eh well. keep up the good work wi the art and speak soon.

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:iconbiscuit-the-great:
thanks. I'm seventeen now, I got myself a PS3 with DMC 4 so I'm pretty much occupied with that right now.

Thanks for the heads up on the art. Sorry to hear you're having trouble at work, I hope it gets better soon!
:iconhdb:
Hey hey, thanks for the :+fav: on my Julia portrait! :D

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:iconteotocchi:
you have such a great gallery!! so cool!

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